THE WORM IN THE HEART
Authenticity"Beginning to think is beginning to be undermined." — Albert Camus, The Myth of Sisyphus
Most people assume thinking is safe. You sit quietly, turn something over in your mind, and arrive at a clearer view. Camus saw it differently. The moment you begin to think with any seriousness, something in you starts to give way.
He means the beliefs you absorbed without deciding. The career path you chose because your father expected it. The politics you inherited from the zip code you grew up in. The relationship you stayed in because leaving seemed too expensive. These arrangements hold up perfectly as long as they are not examined. Aim real attention at any one of them and you can feel the foundation shift.
This is why so much of modern life is structured to prevent thinking. Feeds to scroll, shows to stream, schedules packed tight enough that the only quiet moment comes right before sleep. The noise is not accidental. A person too busy to think cannot be undermined.
Authenticity begins when you stop protecting yourself from your own questions. Not to demolish everything at once, but to accept that any honest examination of your life may change what you find there. Take one belief today, any one, and ask whether you actually hold it or only inherited it. Sit with whatever answer arrives.
See also: January 9: Reasons for Living, Reasons for Dying, March 15: Choosing to See, The Myth of Sisyphus
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